it's not the end...

by this time, everyone probably knows that meng and i didn't get in the executive board for CASA for the next school year.

i can't say i'm okay because i'm obviously not, and it would be hypocrital for me to say na hindi ako nageexpect na mananalo, dahil OO, NAGEXPECT AKO...

alam ko lahat naman kami umaasa dahil sino ba naman ang gusto maging talunan diba?

it just hurts na natalo kami, dahil gusto talaga naming mag-serve. kami yung mga taong driven talaga...hindi kami yung mananalo lang pero after wala namang gagawin.

oo, bitter ako.f***, 10 VOTES????

hayy.feeling ko naiyak ko na naman din lahat kanina eh.well, it seems pointless na umiyak pa ako ngayon this time around.diba?

on the plus side, masaya kami ni meng dahil nanatiling solid ang buong klase sa pagsuporta samin.feeling ko yun lang naman yung importante dun diba?na yung mga taong mas kilala ka ay kampante sa gustong mong gawin at may tiwala sila sa mga kakayahan mo. with that said, i rest my case.

eto, magsa-shout out na lang ako...

>MENG(maritess!)--it was a good fight dear.:) i am glad that i became close to you nung mga panahong ngarag tayo dahil sa kampanya. hindi ito ang katapusan.lalaban pa rin tayo.

>SUPER FRIENDS (Sheena, Mafe, Celine)--hindi ko na kailangan sabihin kung bakit.

>THE PEKPEKS.(chands, tere, etc..)--thank you guys.i love you all so much,it means the world to us na andiyan kayo para sa lahat ng bagay.

>2CA1--lahat kayo guys.maraming salamat.words are not enough to express how grateful we are. i love you all.

>my little sisters from the lower batch--you know who you are. sainyo ako kumuha ng lakas ng loob.lalove you.:)

>ATE MAIKA--for just being there.lovelove ate.:)

>at sa lahat na hindi ko pa nabanggit i'll update this pag may time na ako

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at dun sa isang nag abstain sakin, okay lang yun.no biggie.i swear.you probably have your own reason kung bakit hindi mo ako binoto.i'm not bitter.i appreciate pa nga the fact that you did what you've done,eye opener siya saakin.may mga bagay pala akong dapat baguhin.

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hayy.good luck na lang sa bahay bata ko.

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have i accepted na talo ako?to be honest, hindi.and it might take a while before i can get over it..

thoughts...

earlier today, i saw my "memoirs of a geisha" book that my dad gave me when i was in my last year in high school.

i re-read several quotes from the novel that i think everyone should learn from...

"...some girls are smart and some are stupid," Chapter 4 pg. 53

"You should have told me sooner what a pretty girl you brought with you. Her eyes...they're the color of a mirror!" Chapter 5 p.g.60

"You hate anyone more successful than you." Chapter6 p.g.76

"But to learn in a single moment that both my mother and my father had died and left me, and that my sister too was lost to me forever...at once my mind felt like a broken vase that would not stand. I was lost even within the room around me." Chapter 8 p.g.103

"...we can never flee the misery that is within us," Chapter 9 p.g.106

"In that brief encounter with the Chairman, I had changed from a lost girl facing a lifetime of emptiness to a girl with purpose in her life." Chapter 9 p.g.113

“Whatever our struggles and triumphs, however we may suffer them, all too soon they bleed into a wash…just like watery ink on paper…”

have a great evening everyone!

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look back:

i didn't feel particularly well for this day because i have colds and i'm coming up with a slight fever.

i want to thank the following people who made me feel less sick through their efforts of showing that they care, even though i looked like i wanted to shut the rest of the world out earlier today..

>nicolette--she hugged me and said, "why are you sad mommie chai?it's gonna be alright..." thank you colette! you're an angel.

>teresa--in the middle of math class, she gave me a note that said, "hi chai, why are you so quiet?i miss your noise..." thank you sweetie. i appreciated the hugs.lovelove.

>lou--sabi niya kasi it was unusual to see me quiet.kapatid, salamat sa concern. sana bukas okay na ako.

>jam.tart.raynette.kirby.--they all asked if i was okay, and that meant a lot.:) thank you guys. i love you all.

>maritess! (aka menggay)--well, hindi niya nahalata na tahimik ako today pero she made me laugh anyway.lalove meng.:)<3

see?the small things we usually take for granted are often the things that most people remember and appreciate.

sana lahat ng tao ganito.appreciative.

see you tomorrow blockmates!may power quiz kay sir vasco sa philo.:)

lalove.<333

salamat:)

ngayon pa lang, gusto ko na po magpasalamat sa lahat ng sumuporta at susuporta.

ayoko muna sabihin kung para saan (although i'm pretty sure gets na 'to ng mga blockmates ko at ng mga magigiting na mag-aaral ng CA) dahil uso parin ang sanction (i laugh out loud at this statement).

thanks to everyone.you made us stronger with each encouraging word, with each helpful smile and with every generous effort that you offered to help out in what has been the most exhausting two weeks of our lives.

no matter what the outcome may be, we're gonna get out of this thing with our heads held up high, and with the desire to still continue what we have started.:)

...triggering initiative and competence towards a more responsive and a better performing CASA...

maraming salamat po.:)

give us the tools and we'll finish the job...

the battle may be over but the war isn't done yet...

we'll be back and we'll kick ass, defining a whole new council and giving a new definition to student leadership.

thank you sa lahat ng tumulong, nangarag and naki iyak with us.

hindi namin kakayanin ang lahat ng yun kung wala ang tulong ninyo.

mahal ko kayong lahat at sana hanggang sa huli ay magtulong tulong pa rin tayo.

napaisip lang ako...