thoughts...

earlier today, i saw my "memoirs of a geisha" book that my dad gave me when i was in my last year in high school.

i re-read several quotes from the novel that i think everyone should learn from...

"...some girls are smart and some are stupid," Chapter 4 pg. 53

"You should have told me sooner what a pretty girl you brought with you. Her eyes...they're the color of a mirror!" Chapter 5 p.g.60

"You hate anyone more successful than you." Chapter6 p.g.76

"But to learn in a single moment that both my mother and my father had died and left me, and that my sister too was lost to me forever...at once my mind felt like a broken vase that would not stand. I was lost even within the room around me." Chapter 8 p.g.103

"...we can never flee the misery that is within us," Chapter 9 p.g.106

"In that brief encounter with the Chairman, I had changed from a lost girl facing a lifetime of emptiness to a girl with purpose in her life." Chapter 9 p.g.113

“Whatever our struggles and triumphs, however we may suffer them, all too soon they bleed into a wash…just like watery ink on paper…”

have a great evening everyone!

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look back:

i didn't feel particularly well for this day because i have colds and i'm coming up with a slight fever.

i want to thank the following people who made me feel less sick through their efforts of showing that they care, even though i looked like i wanted to shut the rest of the world out earlier today..

>nicolette--she hugged me and said, "why are you sad mommie chai?it's gonna be alright..." thank you colette! you're an angel.

>teresa--in the middle of math class, she gave me a note that said, "hi chai, why are you so quiet?i miss your noise..." thank you sweetie. i appreciated the hugs.lovelove.

>lou--sabi niya kasi it was unusual to see me quiet.kapatid, salamat sa concern. sana bukas okay na ako.

>jam.tart.raynette.kirby.--they all asked if i was okay, and that meant a lot.:) thank you guys. i love you all.

>maritess! (aka menggay)--well, hindi niya nahalata na tahimik ako today pero she made me laugh anyway.lalove meng.:)<3

see?the small things we usually take for granted are often the things that most people remember and appreciate.

sana lahat ng tao ganito.appreciative.

see you tomorrow blockmates!may power quiz kay sir vasco sa philo.:)

lalove.<333

salamat:)

ngayon pa lang, gusto ko na po magpasalamat sa lahat ng sumuporta at susuporta.

ayoko muna sabihin kung para saan (although i'm pretty sure gets na 'to ng mga blockmates ko at ng mga magigiting na mag-aaral ng CA) dahil uso parin ang sanction (i laugh out loud at this statement).

thanks to everyone.you made us stronger with each encouraging word, with each helpful smile and with every generous effort that you offered to help out in what has been the most exhausting two weeks of our lives.

no matter what the outcome may be, we're gonna get out of this thing with our heads held up high, and with the desire to still continue what we have started.:)

...triggering initiative and competence towards a more responsive and a better performing CASA...

maraming salamat po.:)

give us the tools and we'll finish the job...

the battle may be over but the war isn't done yet...

we'll be back and we'll kick ass, defining a whole new council and giving a new definition to student leadership.

thank you sa lahat ng tumulong, nangarag and naki iyak with us.

hindi namin kakayanin ang lahat ng yun kung wala ang tulong ninyo.

mahal ko kayong lahat at sana hanggang sa huli ay magtulong tulong pa rin tayo.

napaisip lang ako...

10 things i miss about home...

well, as i sit here and listen to bad soap operas, i suddenly felt a huge pang of homesickness.(which isn't really new, considering i miss my home every single day for the past two years since i studied here).

you guys have no idea how hard it is to be away from your own homes. sure, the independence is wonderful, but it gets really lonesome especially during dull days. there are times when i cry, because i feel like no one really cares genuinely for me.

that is why, i am going to write this thing.(as corny as it may seem). wala lang, i just wanna share what i really long for right now.

10. the smell of brewed coffee wafting through the house.

every morning, mom or dad makes it a habit to turn the percolator on and make some coffee for everyone who wants caffeine. it's more than that for me. the smell of strong coffee is my signal to wake up, that no matter how late i slept the previous night (and no matter how badly i still want to sleep), i just have to start my day again.

9.mom's home cooked meals.

like they say, no one cooks quite like my mom.:) she's the type of cook who really puts a whole bunch of love into her cooking, that no matter how busog you still are, you'd still want to eat her dishes.

8. seeing pieces of half eaten cookies or biscuits all over the living room.

this is because i live with 2 little monsters.kidding!i mean, younger kids.living in a house full of children is like living in a third world country.there are a lot of strange smells, bright colors, annoying noise...sometimes, i'd even go ballistic!especially when i just cleaned up the floors or arranged the pillows in the living room couch, once my little brother and sister decide its time to make the couch as an alternative trampoline, i can't do anything but scream!

7. sharing bags of junk food.

during those boring days, my siblings and i would ask someone to buy us chips and we'd gobble them up by watching disney channel or a movie on hbo if there's anything good on. sometimes, we'd end up fighting because one of us would feel like the other got more share, etc.now that i think about it, it's pretty funny.:))

6. the cool, unpolluted province air.

ah, there's nothing like this! i couldn't experience this anywhere else except in bicol!:) tell you what, from where i am, even if it's majorly warm, when the breeze flies in, it's very cool.you won't perspire at all.quite unlike some places i know.:(

5. my friends.

these are the people i knew since, i dunno, forever?they know me inside out.sometimes, it's so freaky that they can decide how i'm feeling even before i could even admit that i am feeling that way.cool,huh?it's like a special bond among us.we're psychic in some ways.

4. the free flowing streets.

in provinces, you never experience heavy traffic.unless there's an accident somewhere.but those never last for an hour or so.it's because people there are super disciplined.

3. seeing the stars at night.

and i'm talking about a multitude of stars!:) when we experience power shortage, my family and i would go out of our veranda and just stare at the sky and admire the dark sky full of stars. we would even crack jokes and we'd be laughing really hard to the point that we feel like our neighbors would suddenly go to our house and tell us to keep it down.:p

2. my entire family, ofcourse.

no need for explanation.i would assume you would understand why.

1. that wonderful sense of familiarity that i would never get tired of returning back to.:)

it's so nice to go back home and hear people speaking a different dialect which i could comprehend.

basically , i miss all the small things i used to ignore.

these and a whole lot more define what i wouldn't trade for anything else.:)

i hope what you just read would make you feel grateful that you aren't missing what you got used to all your lfe.:)good night!:)

utterly clueless

can anyone PLEASE tell me what the eff is going on??? where the hell was i when everyone decided to play around and PRETEND? had i been suffering from a bad cold, or perhaps, been bed ridden for a whole month, when the space time continuum just went out of whack and all the people i know seem to suddenly feel like lying is the best way out? oh come on.seriously. this is going NO where. i'm telling you now. i've been a drama queen in my past life (which i refuse to return to,by the way), and i'm telling you guys, it's NOT GOING TO WORK.people will only figure it out soon enough. and what do you end up with? A WHOLE BUNCH OF LIES AND YOUR VERY OWN WEB OF CONFUSION AND HURT. take this advice from a friend who cares. fix things up and tell everyone the truth before it's too late. you don't want to be branded as a liar for the rest of your life, don't you? so PLEASE, SNAP OUT OF IT. ... oh well.i'm not insinuating anyone.just a friendly rant (if anything of the sort exists) from someone who's been there, done that. i'm outtie.i've been through enough drama for the day.

quick shout outs...

karen's 18th birthday was über fun.thanks for inviting me nerkz:)love you dearly.

i want to greet the following people who showed me a good time last night:

>maggie-you looked great!nice job on the cotillion!

>gracel-hahaha.funny girl.oh no, nakakahiya yung sa "kayo pa rin ba nung boylet mo?hahaha.

>gail and gretch-good to see you guys again! keep on shining!

>jenny!-take care doll.see you soon.good job on the surprise number.

>lovely-miss you!great seeing you again.

>tetet-hahahaha.definitely, i'll make kwento to cheri yung si "O".

>tonz-miss you.bruha ka, gimik tayo next time.

>the guys-(ace, chino, lawrence, yoy, carlo, etc.) hahaha.good to see you all.

>and to nerkz, of course-happy 18th birthday and i'm here for you.ayt?

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oh well.i'm back to school in 2 days.

what do you expect?